Herein is Love

A beach with a million grains of sand, a God whose love is reaching out to all through this glorious scene that He created with care, a mother with love in her heart walking next to her little boy, a sky painted with a golden yellow sun telling the world goodnight.

My heart: full of love. This is what I see when I look at this photograph.

Lately I have been realizing how there are people who fail me, and circumstances that make life bumpy. Whether my people are not there for me to talk to when I need them to be, or they do something unexpected and cause me pain there seems to be things that get in the way of allowing me to completely rely on them. Then there are times when nothing seems to be going right, and there are many days when the things of this world are not sure. Through these failures, and rough days I have also been experiencing a God that cares so much more then all of the things that seem to be falling apart. A God that sent His only Son to a dark world, full of people that would reject Him.Yet, He knew this would be the only way to save His children [us] from sin, and show us His never ending love.

I can only imagine how God must feel when He sees us hurting, and how much He wants to take us home and curl up with us saying, "My child, tell me all about it. It's going to be okay because I love you."

I've been reading The Desire of Ages, in the chapter, Unto a Savior the picture of love given blows me away, "The heart of the human father yearns over his son. he looks into the face of his little child, and trembles at the thought of life's peril. He longs to shield his dear one from Satan's power, to hold him back from temptations and conflict. To meet bitterer conflict and a more fearful risk, God gave his only-be Son, that the path of life might be made sure for our little ones. "Herein is love, "Wonder, O heavens! and be astonished, O earth!" 


God has given to us, more love then we can ever fully grasp. In times of solitude, and connection to Him, I can feel this love. Just like in the photograph, and my heart is full. 

A little bit joy, a little bit a tears..

The snow was incredible at Stryne this weekend. We had a blast, all cookin our food together, singing songs. No rush, no worries, no announcements or wake up calls. Sometimes you just need a break, and it was everything I needed.

Now I'm back. I have responsibilities, tests, alarm clocks, appointments, and deadlines. There is a provincial and final to study for, decisions to make, and lots of things to do. I am hesitant to start another week because I know that tears may reappear yet again, worries will return, and the decisions that must be made soon...still need to be made. 

How come life is so hard? Why must I feel so inadequate and vulnerable? 

I can't find the words to pray
I'm a little down today
Can you help me?
Can you hold me?
I feel a million miles away
And I don't know what to say
Can ya here me anyway?
What I need is for you to reach out your hand
You have taught me
No matter what you'd understand

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move, or move me.
I've look every where to find
A simple peace of mind
I can't find nothing on my own
So I got to leave myself behind
Take up this cross of mine
Give away everything I hold onto

Lord I know the only way is through this
Lord I know I need you to help me do this
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move, or move me.

Out of this place of complacency
To a place of fellowship with thee
Cause I am weak but Lord you are so strong
And you know it's been way too long

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move or move me.

Written Last weekend, somehow didn't post properly(: