A little bit joy, a little bit a tears..

The snow was incredible at Stryne this weekend. We had a blast, all cookin our food together, singing songs. No rush, no worries, no announcements or wake up calls. Sometimes you just need a break, and it was everything I needed.

Now I'm back. I have responsibilities, tests, alarm clocks, appointments, and deadlines. There is a provincial and final to study for, decisions to make, and lots of things to do. I am hesitant to start another week because I know that tears may reappear yet again, worries will return, and the decisions that must be made soon...still need to be made. 

How come life is so hard? Why must I feel so inadequate and vulnerable? 

I can't find the words to pray
I'm a little down today
Can you help me?
Can you hold me?
I feel a million miles away
And I don't know what to say
Can ya here me anyway?
What I need is for you to reach out your hand
You have taught me
No matter what you'd understand

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move, or move me.
I've look every where to find
A simple peace of mind
I can't find nothing on my own
So I got to leave myself behind
Take up this cross of mine
Give away everything I hold onto

Lord I know the only way is through this
Lord I know I need you to help me do this
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move, or move me.

Out of this place of complacency
To a place of fellowship with thee
Cause I am weak but Lord you are so strong
And you know it's been way too long

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move or move me.

Written Last weekend, somehow didn't post properly(: