A little bit joy, a little bit a tears..

The snow was incredible at Stryne this weekend. We had a blast, all cookin our food together, singing songs. No rush, no worries, no announcements or wake up calls. Sometimes you just need a break, and it was everything I needed.

Now I'm back. I have responsibilities, tests, alarm clocks, appointments, and deadlines. There is a provincial and final to study for, decisions to make, and lots of things to do. I am hesitant to start another week because I know that tears may reappear yet again, worries will return, and the decisions that must be made soon...still need to be made. 

How come life is so hard? Why must I feel so inadequate and vulnerable? 

I can't find the words to pray
I'm a little down today
Can you help me?
Can you hold me?
I feel a million miles away
And I don't know what to say
Can ya here me anyway?
What I need is for you to reach out your hand
You have taught me
No matter what you'd understand

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move, or move me.
I've look every where to find
A simple peace of mind
I can't find nothing on my own
So I got to leave myself behind
Take up this cross of mine
Give away everything I hold onto

Lord I know the only way is through this
Lord I know I need you to help me do this
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move, or move me.

Out of this place of complacency
To a place of fellowship with thee
Cause I am weak but Lord you are so strong
And you know it's been way too long

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and I'll knock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move or move me.

Written Last weekend, somehow didn't post properly(:

excitement

Today is a very exciting day! Not just because it's thursday and that means tomorrow is friday, and tomorrow evening is Sabbath. It's not just exciting because sunday is International Supper, and it's one more day closer to Christmas. But...today is a very very exciting day because...my Daddy, Mom and Oliver are coming to visit me, all the way from Milton-Freewater Oregon...tomorrow! They are on their way up right now, at this very moment!!!  I can barely believe it!

Let me tell you, I can barely concentrate! This morning in English class I talked to Christian...and occasionally Michael..about sailing..and random things, because none of us really felt like working on our papers. To say the least, I didn't get that much done. Plus I was informing them about the fact that my family is coming up...those boys got the privilege to listen to me ramble on and on about how excited I am!  Then this afternoon at work all I could think about was the fact that they were on their way and...time has been going so slow!

SO...I can't wait...less then 24 hours I will get a huge hug from my Daddy, Mom, and get to squeeze my little bro. I love my family! 

Now I must go and try to study some. 

I'M SO BEYOND EXCITED!